S.C.R.I.B.E. Ministries is a go | Deliverance from fear
Updated: Jan 21, 2019
(Matthew 25: 26-28) But his master answered and said to him, ‘You wicked, lazy slave, you knew that I reap where I did not sow and gather where I scattered no seed. ‘Then you ought to have put my money in the bank, and on my arrival I would have received my money back with interest. ‘Therefore take away the talent from him, and give it to the one who has the ten talents.
S.C.R.I.B.E. Ministries came to me in the Fall semester of 2016. As a student at Dallas Theological Seminary (DTS), I wasn't sure why I was attending seminary. I just knew I wanted to be closer to God. Enrolling in seminary seemed like an unnecessary far reach; after all, there was church. I knew I wasn't going to become a pastor / teacher, or even a church staff member. My gift was exhortation. I was solid in my identity in Christ long ago. Nevertheless, church wasn't doing it for me anymore. Don't ask what the "it" was. I have no idea, I just knew I needed more.
Suddenly, my baby sister was teaching me after decades of me being the "teacher" concerning the mysteries of the Bible. What was this new doctrine? Where did this new freedom of hers come from? I wanted to be free too. So, like a kid-sister following her role model, I enrolled into DTS. I loved the idea of following her. It was cool hearing our peers refer to me, "Oh you must be Ramona's little sister." "Yea! I'm Rebecca nice to meet you." I reversed into her shadow for the first time. I was amazed. She married her work and ministry together and became my first ever up-close and personal, in-living color example of what it is to be a kingdom citizen. I wanted to be one too.
By the Fall midterm of 2017, Dr. Barbara Neuman, (Houston TX) sat me down and reviewed my Module with me and said, "What are you doing, you do not have the gift of administration. You are a teacher. You should not be trying to build a non-profit organization. I want you to build this ministry up to give it away." The proverbial light switch in my head was the LED bulb that clarified my whole re-route. It was the "ah-ha!" I needed. I was so excited.
You should have seen me those first few months. My desk looked like an architect's work station. The new blueprint to S.C.R.I.B.E. Ministries was being mapped out. But who was going to help me? I couldn't do this by myself. I methodically recruited the best writer and speaker I knew from my home-church, and we even had a few meetings where they poured into my vision. I even bought shirts for my staff, but then by the time Dr. Neuman convinced me that I needed to be at the Dallas campus, S.C.R.I.B.E Ministries was put on halt. All our work seemed to have been for naught.
The following Summer blew around and my new pastor / teacher in Dallas said that we were evil and wicked for burying God's talent that he gave us. Ouch! That hurt my chest, and S.C.R.I.B.E. Ministries was peaking at me from around the corner looking like "I told you so."
I barely made it to heaven by God's gracious covering, I couldn’t afford to be a wicked anything. Not in this life. It's too hard. I need all the mercy I can receive. But I literally have nothing! No knowledge, skill, or know-how to be a builder of anything concerning the awesome God I serve. I was too rebellious at heart to be a builder in the kingdom. Why was this ministry so pressing in my soul? So, I figured God would either shut this whole operation down indefinitely (of which I happily welcomed on more than one occasion), or I was going to move forward with S.C.R.I.B.E. Ministries.
Our executive pastor is like a breath of fresh spring water. He gave me covering, authorization and direction on how to build my ministry. He said to start at the grass roots and build authentic relationships with people, learning who they are and how I could serve them. This basic m.o. was amiss in my past, but pastor held my hand and showed me how to lay one brick on top of the other. God is so kind!
2019 is here and today we finished our first meeting as S.C.R.I.B.E. members. God has yet to cease to amaze me. S.C.R.I.B.E. Ministries is a go.